I have to make a confession: I haven’t been going to church regularly lately. Truth be known, I’m having a real struggle with the Christian church in America. I would just leave where I’m at, but I think it is a universal problem in the church here in the states.
I don’t know about you, but I have an issue with the kingdom of God being usurped by the kingdom of man and being used and abused as a person platform for unabashed ego strokes. My heart gets sick when I can no longer worship my God with an open and soft heart because it’s being hardened by the knuckleheads on stage (when does a church need a stage?) who act like they are trying to be cast on American Idol or were the rejects off of School of Rock. I’m tired of smoke machines and pretty lights, and I’m sick of love songs to Jesus, the bestest prom date ever. I’m tired of walking into churches and when asked to differentiate between it and Amos’s South End here in Charlotte, being able to only respond with “there’s no beer. And the music is not as cool.” I’m tired of the Rob Bells of the world who place being an orthodox Christian a distant second to being cool and well-spoken of. I’m tired of pastors whose egos are only eclipsed by the size of their megachurch buildings. I’m sick of a Christianity that looks so much like the secular world, that if I were a skeptic I would find no attraction to it. I spend most of my day feeling like Charlie Brown on “A Charlie Brown Christmas” screaming “Does anyone know the true meaning of Christianity???”
I realize my words are pretty scathing, and that’s good. They should be. I’m kind of disgusted by Christendom right now. I’m not saying I doubt Christianity to be true, quite the opposite. However, I find church to be leaving me fairly wanting spiritually at this point. It may help to understand my point better by breaking a few things down one by one.
I have had what I feel to be a burden from God placed on my heart. There are several areas of life that I don’t feel that our current way of “doing church” is cutting it as a genuine expression of Christianity. I feel that God is calling His church to be less than what it is, and in doing so, becoming MORE than it is. I hope that, as I use my blog to flesh out the ideas that I think God is giving me, that everyone who reads this (all three or four people) will also provide feedback if they are so led by God.